Walking Backwards

I'm starting this entry at the tail-end of Nicholas' nap, so it is probably not going to be finished until I'm about ready to go to bed. That is how things have been going around here lately. I don't know who coined the phrase terrible-twos, but that person obviously did not have an over-achieving three year-old like I do. I would go through all of two over again just to not have to be stuck in three-world anymore. Now he has verbal AND reasoning ability and is using both to his advantage. I never expected to have to deal with manipulation so young. *Sigh* It is only with me, though, his other caretakers think he is an angel. He has them so snowed.

My car is still in the shop. We're going on day five now. I called them this morning and asked when I could pick up my car and they told me that not all the parts had arrived yet. I have no idea what that means as I didn't even know that new parts were needed. Who knows what is going on with my car. I am also eagerly awaiting the bill for my car's five day vacation at the four-star resort known as the Saturn dealership. Especially since they told me that they couldn't find what was causing my problem, they are just going to do an all-over maintenance. I have a feeling that my credit card is about to get a little heavier when I pick up the car tomorrow afternoon. At least Joe and I have decided against the new car for now, this one is eating up our down-payment.

Things on the home-front haven't been easy lately, either. Joe has been working a lot and hasn't been available. I've fallen into some sort of unproductive rut that I can't seem to get out of. I want to lay around the house and do nothing, but I feel bad that my house looks so awful and nothing is getting accomplished. I'm also having anxiety problems again. Imagine thinking about a hundred things you have to do, but being unable to accomplish any of them. It's frustrating. I'm really eager to snap out of it, but I don't seem to have the impetus at the moment. Grrrrr, I know this mood is phasic in me, that it comes and goes, but I have too much going on to not do anything. Maybe getting off the computer right now would be a good start :).