Walking Backwards

Well, I feel better now. I think just realizing that I was feeling down and why helped a great deal. I also got out of my house this morning, which does wonders. My friend Bella and I took the kiddos to Deep Eddy pool and let them splash around in the water and sit in the sun. Turns out we were both feeling kind of blue. As bad as it sounds, I'm glad that there is someone else out there who also has down days as well. I have to say that this mothering thing is a lot more isolating than I ever thought it would be. In the quest to become more family-centered I have had to let go of a lot of my independence, but I have also had to let go of the intense involvement I had with my friends. The easy meetings at coffee shops or dropping in on the weekends doesn't go down quite so easily. *Sigh* I know it will come back, but the ease and casualness of my life before is sorely missed now. However, this little kid thing makes you reassess friendships and find out who is really going to be there.

Anyway, Deep Eddy pool is a great set-up for toddlers. The pool is graded from one end to another starting at 9 inches deep and topping off at 4 feet. It is also big enough that the children are not running over one another. We put Nicholas in his swim vest so that when he got to a point deep enough to reach his chest he would bob up and start floating enough to get the illusion of swimming while he was still able to touch the bottom. After awhile, the sun and the swimming became a little difficult with the now exhausted small ones and we made the trek up to the picnic tables for a snack. This degenerated into throwing the snack onto the ground for the wildlife. This place has the world's fattest squirrels. As we were leaving the children spotted a gigantic centipede that about gave me a heart attack even though it was on its back in the throes of death. Nature freaks me out sometimes. Good morning all in all and now I seem to have enough energy/motivation to do something around these parts other than sitting on the computer ;). I know it will wear off soon.