Walking Backwards

Wow, I must say that not being in school and actually having a pause button on my life has really thrown me for a loop. When I was in school everything had to be run according to a schedule or nothing would get done. I had something to do at all times and was able to prioritize in such a manner that if I did find myself not doing something, I could quickly slide back into frenzied activity. Now, I'm lost. Amazingly, my house is in worse shape than when I was working and studying like crazy. I haven't gone to the grocery store in I don't know how long. Its not like I don't have anything to do either, Nico's birthday party is next week and we are heading to the coast this weekend. My house and yard need some major work and my mom called this morning to tell me that she'll coming in next week for a funeral and will be staying here and attending Nico's party. I just find myself mindlessly staring at the tv or the computer screen. I think my brain has just shut down. I really need to snap out of it because school starts again in a week and a half, its not like my brain can go into long-term suspension. I was hoping to play catch-up during this little break so that I don't have to worry about stuff like going to Goodwill or buying Nico's summer clothes or calling the pest control guy while I have piles of homework in front of me. None of that is going to get done if I can't even leave my house. Its also hampering my relaxing time because I can't stop thinking about what I should be doing. I need to just spend a day making a to-do list and start plugging away at it. Then, in the evening, I don't have to rush out and buy a package of diapers, I can watch CSI: guilt free.