Walking Backwards

It is always so hard for me to start the week after a three day holiday. For some reason, it always feels like there should be more vacation days tacked on to the end. Maybe I'm just being greedy; I so enjoyed not having anything to do. We're super broke right now as well so even if we did have the motivation to get out of the house, we wouldn't have the means. Joe and I are not to the point where we can't pay our bills or are eating ramen noodles or anything, we just can't buy any of the superfluous stuff or go out to eat or anything fancy. Being broke afforded us the luxury of not doing anything, though, so its not all bad. Normally, with extra days off at hand, home project lists get longer around here. This time around, a trip to Home Depot was not in the checkbook. Therefore, I didn't feel the need to replace my carpet or paint anything or build a pergola in my backyard. I am crazy you know. I would have tried to do it.

Instead, we watched videos this weekend and I read. I cleaned off my desk and worked on my quilt. Joe played a lot of video games. We watched the baby run around the backyard like a madman. It was really nice. The entire weekend reminded me that life is not about constantly striving for some goal, but about the journey you take to get there. Joe and I have been so wrapped up in what we have to do or get done that neither of us has taken a step back to take pleasure in it all. All of it was something that had to be finished, as fast as possible, so that we can move on to complete the next task. I have a bad habit of slipping into that pattern without even noticing it. I know I am going to fall back into it again eventually, but I hope that I can get the most out of the time I have up until then. After all, what can be better than sitting in chairs at dusk with the people you love and enjoying what you have?