Walking Backwards

Its been almost a week since I have written, but I haven't really had anything good to say.  I started the South Beach Diet on Wednesday and have been unusually surly and ill-tempered because of it.  I just want a damn peach or strawberry.  It is the summer after all.  I only have another week and a half of being without fruit, but this has been the longest four days.  It also doesn't help that I have a deep dislike for eggs, which the diet recommends you eat every morning.  I have been eating them, but I am hoping to find an alternative.  The only options I can see are salad or grilled chicken.  I guess I can have lunch for breakfast since we used to have breakfast for dinner.  I am just ready to actually see that I've lost weight, maybe I'll be more motivated then.  It also sucks that I am the only person in this house that is on the diet.  I almost passed out when I made Nico French Toast for breakfast yesterday.  It smelled like cinnamon and vanilla and goodness in the kitchen for so long I had to stop going near there.  I also made Joe cookies to take into work today for the monthly weekend work-day.  I couldn't even eat one.  Man, this better be worth it.  I already have a weeks worth of food planned for when this phase is over.  While you can only add whole grains and fruit, I am ready for those days to come.  I don't know how long you are supposed to be on phase two until you hit phase three (maybe I should actually finish the book), but I hope its not too long.  Is it so wrong to love bread so much?


Joe's paycut was finally instated this week.  It is going to suck not having that extra money every month.  We were just wasting it anyway, but still.  I am not really good at budgeting money and neither is Joe.  I guess we are going to have to get better at it rather quickly.  It wouldn't be so bad if Nicholas wasn't going into preschool this fall and adding that extra payment to our monthly expenses.  I may not be able to go to work right away either, as I am enrolling in school next semester (if they take the stupid administrative hold off of my records).  I hope that all ends well.  If only we could pay off those infernal credit cards :).  I think we are stuck with them for the rest of our lives, though.


We bought a tent today in hopes that we'll be able to go camping soon.  Joe has been promising to take me camping since we first started dating and now I hope he feels obligated to.  Before you laugh about how I was just lamenting my budget woes and now I am going out and wasting money, my mother-in-law gave me the money last Christmas to buy camping supplies and we are just now getting around to it.  We probably won't go camping until next spring, but we bought the tent because it was an end of the season sale and therefore super cheap.  I've never been camping before in my life and don't know what to expect.  Everyone has told me that I am going to hate it, but I don't know.  I hate bugs and dirt, but I love living primitively (yes I DO!) and I love being out in nature.  We shall see how I fare.